Our hearts mesh as we’re wrapped in one another’s arms and you rest your head against mine. I don’t want to let go I want the future to feel as secure as this moment. I want love to be apparent always. Consistency. A safe landing spot for you and me. A place to love strong and feel free. Secrets unhidden and resolution always possible. A desire to grow together. No ultimatums shall be given. Rejection shall not be a concern. Acceptance as we are and forgiveness when we fail one another. Honesty and sincerity. No need to hide.

Vulnerability and companionship are powerful. Helping us become strong as our souls synchronize yet deeper. Love deeper. Just a look in the eyes and a gentle smile can feel like being inclosed by your arms. The hearts meeting back up and the worry’s vanishing. A softness and warmth.

I’m here! Aching and Out of Breath

Here’s a very unedited free write! Dark nights equal dark writes. 
It’s a lingering ache and tightness in the chest

A quiver in the cheeks when I’m lost in my head

All I want is to freely love not this struggle for breath

I want live in the present not rush around and fear death

I want to make you proud a hug a kiss on the cheek

a comfort zone where I can rest my feet

But the wall stays up and the fear is to great

Pulling and pushing me is more than I can take

Why why why do I have to chase you

Am I not worthy of your love

I’m not a transaction

Not to be dehumanized

I long for love touch and connections

Deep long term human interactions

I’m not looking to replace anybody or fill any void

But I run in confidence to get destroyed

Open your eyes pull away the mask

If your visions a little blurry I’ll clean the glass

For you to see I’m hear

I’m here

I have nothing to prove but I must ask

Why am I not good enough and why couldn’t you just be proud?

I’m here.

I want to spend time with you.

I want to love you.

I want to support you.

I want to make you proud.

I want to feel your hugs.

I want to see your smile.

I want to share meals.

I want to be wanted in return.

I want to be considered an equal.

I want to speak to you in confidence.

I want to be safe.

I want to be understood.

I want to be loved.

I want to love.

I’m here.

Written February 27, 2020

Seth June


A Dream – Love Story


I’ve finally seen her, it’s the girl I’ve always loved

She looks just as beautiful as ever, she was sent from up above.


I try to avoid conversation because I know what she does to me

She says I would’ve told you but I can’t because of he.


I said it’s ok, but it really never is

She’s all I’ve wanted she’s the family and mama of my kids.


But we were never able to make it

And I can’t help but love you, the flame remains lit.


I could no longer hold the wonder I asked and “I’m moving is what she said”

The tears moved up from my heart and released out my head.


I tried to be understanding but my response back to her

Was I’m trying to let go but something else should occur.


I’ve tried to move away but I’m wherever I go

I’ve tried to escape but my addiction would just show.


You tried to tell me to quit but I never could

And for you I always thought I would.


I cried for years and I still do to this day

But it was a different guy standing there the day your dad gave you away.


I told you I wished you the best but I had to go

Tear filled eyes I turned and took some steps and what happened next I wouldn’t know.


I walked in the distance wiping the uncontrollable tears from my face

about the time I looked up at the sky I heard the beautiful girl yell wait.


I turned around still teary eyed and scared to death

The girl came running jumped in my arms and stole my breathe.


A loving smile followed by a powerful kiss

We were spinning circles blocking traffic and nothing else in the world seemed to exist.


That day we left together and we never looked behind

Walking away holding hands knowing it was true loves perfect time.